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Well all once more I disappeared into the darkness of my heart and mind and return to the world refreshed and heading in a new direction. Since my move to Edmonton Alberta I've learnt some interesting things. So I thought I'd share these with you all once again. 

First thing I learnt.  It's good to get to know and understand blood relatives and see how and why you are you. 
Second. That taking a chance in life can be very rewarding. 
Third. Even if they are family you do not have to have them in your life if they are deeply negative and stressing. 
Forth. Taking a job you know for easy money can have a bigger price tag on your life than it's worth.
Fifth. Trusting in yourself and not letting fear consume you is a very wise thing indeed. \
Sixth. Knowing yourself is key to knowing what you want and finding a way to get there. 

Now that I've shared that. I'll tell you what had and is becoming of me. I once I moved back to Edmonton took a job in a place that I felt I needed to, in order to make money and get on my feet. I believed that in a very short time I would be promoted to a higher level than what I was hired at. Sadly I clouded myself into thinking this and became stuck and then in fear and distress over the job and the need to pay bills and feed myself. Sadly I have been paying a heavy price for this. Thankfully to my loved ones all over I've gotten out of feeling that way, took 4 months medical leave to get better and find my way again. I have just returned to that very same job as a need for a little money but more importantly to prove to myself that I can or can not do it any more.  I've been there two days now and know with out a question in my mind that I do not desire to work there any more or ever again. So I have written my letter of resignation and soon will give it to them.

Now for some great news...! 

I have been hired and as of March 11th will be getting training to become a Driving Instructor for young Drivers of Canada.  For those of you whom have driven with me knows that I can drive fast aggressive sometimes scary but also that I am safe, never hurt or been in an accident since I've been driving. Worse yet never even had a driving infraction other than parking tickets lol. Add to that, my personal deminor vs. my work deminor are very different when with a customer.  So very soon I'll be offline for another month. But those of you whom have my cell number please text me. If you do not have it yet.. Please send me a privet msg and I'll get it to you. I have unlimited text to my phone and want to talk to you all. 

Extras of the job.. and these get my very excited. 
BlackBerry PDA device. 
Class 4 license = driving any thing that does not have air brakes and seats 24 people or less including Ambulances.. lol 
and the best of all. 
A new 2007 Yaris Toyota car. 

So I'm very pleased that I was able to prove to them that I am just the person they want to teach others how to drive. I do have a lot of hard work a head of me and I've needed to change my look to a more professional manor so new cloths hair and even thou I did not have to I removed all my piercing also.  I'll be in Calgary for a month training at their cost.. Woots. I'm sure there will be much to learn and do.. But I will do it and complete it all at the top of my class. :P  For those who are in Calgary or know people there and might want to go for coffee please let me know. I'm always looking to meet new people. 

Well that is all for now.. Take care one and all.. Mis you lots..

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Created by ptocheia

Good Eve all..

    Well things in my life are mellowing again thank the Gods.. The great event of the weekend has come and gone. MY sister and her LOVE got Hitched for a year and a day. It was a great event for all that were there. Huge Congratz to my Sis and her Love...

     Things work wise are still a bit stressing but getting better, and thankfully hafter some hard times this weekend mu head is a fair bit clearer now also. Just got to hate it when life / head / emotions kick you for a bit. lol Other upside of things also. Seems I might have a new friend in my life to experiment with, this should prove a most interesting time.

     Well back to that work thing. Everyone take care..

Hey all once more I let life take me over and failed in writing all about it.

Well as of lait work has been really getting to me, along with my family members. Lets start with the good things..

Recently as many know my niece was down, that was a great time. She's gotten so tall since I saw her last. She takes so much after me it's really very frighting.. lol And the BRAIN scars we caused so many, it was great. First everyone hearing her call me Uncele all the time, that scared so many.. lol Two her LUST for life was another funny trait. She's still very young and trying to find her way in life as we all do often, I just hope that this vissit will help her see what else is out there for her to try for. See she grew up in DownTown Edmonton and had a lot of unpleasing times. So I keep trying to show her there is so much more than slumming it and getting nocked up and popping pills to excape the crap life. Hope to hell it works..

Well lets see.. I moved a few months ago.. So very glad we did.. My dear friend and brother John moved in with me about 8 months ago into my old place and thanks to him we were able to get out of the other place I was in and get a real appartment. I LOVE CONCREAT now.. the other place was nice but my gods the temp and the noise there was driving me wako.. and not the fun loving kind I try to be. So yes a LARGE 3 bedroom is sooo nice now..

Now for the less than happy things.   while my Niece was here I had to find my mother and take use to see her. That's been about a month and half ago and honestly is still eats me up inside.. It's got me so messed up I want to freak out at the littlest things. This ofcorse is putting a strain on my life, my friends, even my work. Sorry everyone. I thought I could deal and put it all behind me, but I was soo very wrong. It's only been in the last few days that I'm relizing why I've been so moody and was sick for so long since then. My sleep my eating my temper everything has been plagged by this.. and I do not know what to do. I real do not. I'm trying to except it and let it run it's corse and try to be honest with myself, but I can't stand losing my temper as I've been doing soo often now. anyone have any nice ideas please let me know.. I still can not shake the look or the touch from her. part of me wants to share it but in good taste I will not.. but it makes me shudder still..! I can't even discribe the torment and disgust and pain within.. I never want someone to ever feel this I do not want to feel this..

Now for work.. oh gods the crap going on here. the torment they are causing my sister, worse than they casued me in the past. the work load is about to get worse a sup is power tripping like a mad man, the customers are getting pissy or dence as hell. it's just building up more and more again. I can't wait till either it mellows or I can adjust.

I recenly thought I found a love tho it was online but better than nothing. Well the died in a hurry. She keeps taking too much out of what I say and mean, going WAY too fast and can not seem to understand the trubles I have being able to let someone in. I've been hurt and abused my ladies one in particular and that caused me a lot of demons..  GOD damn why the fuck will people not fucken lissen. Had a cus bewiddle the shit out of me for not being abel to help in with something that we have nothing to fucken do with.. Fuck off shut up and god damn it lissen to me don't get in my fucken face.

Sorry all end for now.

Wolf

Well This week has been an interesting one. It would seem that The great Cable Angles have finally taken it upon them self’s to finally pull the plug on my humble entertainment. Now to my surprise it's taken them a good 3 months to finally understand that I was not paying them any more, and in fact had filed chapter 13 I believe it's called about the same time and they were notified of this then and since then several times.  Now come Dec 9th in the wee hours of the morning The Cable Angels had come to my door and not once not twice but three times rather loud and deeply annoyingly banged upon my door. Now having been asleep and many more hours before I need to be up for work I tried to role over and go back to sleep. Alas this was not something the Cable Angels would let me do. No they then had to slip a nice little statement through the side of my door stating that I owed them close to 700.00 CND. Well this pleased me greatly. I got to call my Trusty and then the Cable Angels Pearly Gates Receptionist. JOY...! Now having talked to my Trusty, whom I'll refer to as my Minion.. :) She informed me that they had in fact sent the documents about 3 months ago and never heard back from the so called Angles, and that if I wished they'd be happy to call them for me and sort this all out. I declined this and desired to call them myself.

So I call the Pearly gates and give them MOST of my details. Silly people wanted my phone number. Like that was going to happen. :P So I go into details about what had just happened not 20 minutes ago and what my Minion said and how I was feeling regarding this great disturbance at such an early time of the day. The Receptionist decided to correct me and tell me that NO they would NEVER do such a thing, and it must have been the postman that delivered the notice. So at this time I finally get a little ticked off and start to first describe said parchment and then I read it word for word to her, all along she tried to interrupt me and stop me.   Now as some of you know I work in a Pearily Gates Location of another type and well one of the first things we are told by the All Mighty one is let the customer rant and get it all out then try and help the Peons.. Well this certainly was not the case here. So I just kept on going and not letting her interrupt me at all. EG Once I was done she tried to tell me that I would have to call another department for her's was not the one that could do anything, but yet that was the department and number on the statement that THEY did not deliver to my door. Then once again asked for my number, I told her that I was using my Neighbours phone and could not give it out and then she tried to force me to do so.. It was at this point I truly had enough and proceeded to giver her all my Minion's information and insisted that she or they contact my minion from this point on and that I was deeply upset by how they handled all this and that they truly need to work out a better way of making sure all their departments are kept informed properly of legal matters like this. So once this was all done I dismissed her like a little bug thanked her for the lovely start to my day and proceed to draft a nice little letter for the Cable Angel that was to return on the 16th to take full payment.   

Now I've made reference to this parchment before and in an added section to this I'll include most of what it says word for word. :P